Social Isolation | COVID-19

I wasn't a social person before all this went down. But, to be honest, this lockdown is killing me. I underestimated how much it would affect me and my mental health. Leaving this toxic place only a few hours a day was an escape. I appreciate the annoying bus journeys and the waiting in the cold now. I appreciate the library full of people. I miss attending REAL lectures. I miss my crowded coffee shops and empty park trails. I miss being around nature. I miss going down to the river. Today alone, I have had several break downs and panic attacks. My mental health is at an all time low. My motivation is at an all time low. I have NEVER felt so alone, in my entire life. I have no one to talk to. Even the people I can talk to, don't and won't understand what I'm going through. I can't tell anyone my problems, and it just keeps weighing me down. I feel like I'm drowning. I feel like I'm suffocating. I feel trapped. In this house, with these people who don't